I take breaks too. I've been in recovery for addiction. for 5 years and I was able to quit alcohol for about 2 years before going back to it here and there. I was doing really well for a long time until the pandemic hit and I started hitting that bottle every weekend and twice during the week. Now, i'm able to take breaks, only drinking about one every 2 weeks. I pray we never fall into another quarantine.... I don't know if i'll make it out alive.